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he first texted me this msg:
Sometimes, we put too much passion on the biggest dreams & priorities in life that we fail to love the smallest pleasures from simple things. We search so much for the right choice, for the right paths to walk through for the right time and for the right reasons.
But life isn’t about searching for the things that can be found. It is about letting the unexpected happen & finding things you never searched for.
i didn’t reply…
again…
pno b ang tamang pagbati sa umaga?
Gud morning luma na
Gud Am maikli
Magandang Umaga tagalog baduy
Im m kung no masarap pakinggan?
hmmmmmm…
“can you smile 4 me this morning?”
still i ignore…
but then he keep on forwarding me “forwarded msgs”, i was pissed off then texted him back if he knew me…
yes, he did but he didn’t actually reveal himself.
Last night, i texted him again and ask him what will i call him. He didn’t reply that question instead he told me that i knew him bec. weve been friends before not recently that i met but a few years ago during my college days. I was bewildered coz actually i have few good friends before then he actually replied that i always feel pressure about my subjects esp when i was graduating… I said “of course i do, all my subjects are so hard esp in line in my course (which is IT bytheway)”
He was kinda diverting my moods at that time, when i actually felt so bored bec. i have no one to talk too, yes I was still up at 11pm in our living room, alone!!! my family was asleep at that time, so its damn boring!!!
we texted until he came up to this text…
“do you know delo”
i was stunned! the hell he knew that name!!! then i replied back saying…
if you were friends, related or knew him, please stop texting me and I wont you bother, promise! huhuhuuhuhuh
and he actually replied…
dont worry u wud know me but not this time. k? I don’t know whats the reason but i just like to have a thrill… hehehe
my last replied…
thrill? this is not. Not at all…
you mention a name…
anyway, if you plan to have this game please stop coz im sure ill be ending much more sedated…
you know be sensitive enough will you? huhuhu
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im scared of hearing that name again… that name who makes my life so miserable!!!
that name i tried to avoid, forget, and move on TOTALLY with all my life.
that name that i want to dig and be buried forever!
i did already accept the fact now, esp having connection with that “name”
i try to manage and live thinking that “name” was not been part of my life, that ive never meet him and considered one of strangers around…
i know this is right, i know this will make me good and at peace! i know…
ive heard that his happy, and i know his happy… he was happy without talking to me, without closure and without me… he was damn happy!
all i want is PEACE, and live my life without his memories, without his shadows, without this pain, and without this anger…
i know i can and hoping coz ive been trying to death about forgetting and forgiving HIM totally…
I dont want to cry just like that night if he’s the reason again, im tired of doing this at all… huhu
I just want to be happy AGAIN, without him this time!
