Hello world! November 23, 2007

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Mind Dribbling November 22, 2007

I just found this text at my box, it was saved last month, October 24. As a surfer, I usually tend to get involved to some personality tests at the internet just to try out things and as well might know myself more which I didn’t knew before. And me on the other hand, Im kinda screwed. But Anyway, one thing is that I cant remember what site is this but I guess having those trials is a worth a try.

Your Existing Situation
Needs, and insists on having, a close and understanding relationship, or at least some method of satisfying a compulsion to feel identified.

Your Stress Sources
Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in the future and this negative attitude leads her to make exaggerated demands and to refuse to make reasonable compromises.

Your Desired Objective
Longs for tenderness and for a sensitivity of feeling into which she can blend. Responsive to anything esthetic and tasteful.

Your Actual Problem
Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. Trying to escape from this into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, protecting from dissatisfaction and lack of appreciation.

Like I said. I’m screwed. :p

Oled…

Seven Deadly Dating Sins November 22, 2007

I had posted this to one of my blogs (Stripped of Innocence), but I kinda hooked to read again, all over in case I might forget the rules… big no no no…

In the dating world, there are certain things you just don’t do. Okay, to be fair, we all do them—but we wish there had been someone there to tell us not to! In this excerpt from Sex with Your Ex, Yvonne K. Fulbright, Ph.D. clearly lays out the seven biggest dating sins for all the world to see (and avoid). So next time that little voice in your head tells you to pull a When Harry Met Sally in bed tonight or check your ex’s away message, you’ll know better!

1. Never have sex with your ex
The hard fact is that having sex with your ex-boyfriend, ex-husband, ex-partner, ex-one-night-stand, ex-whatever is playing with fire on too many levels for it ever to be the truly right thing to do. Strong feelings will resurface. You may long for him in ways that will surprise you. You may have to fight an overpowering lust. Powerful sex-triggered hormones in your body can make you think you’re falling in love again. You will have amnesia about the reasons you’re no longer together and be sucked into a fantasy of “happily ever after” this time. You will be tempted to think only of the good times, and you may even find yourself thinking about what could have been, what might still be … stop that.

2. Never let him keep photos of you in your birthday suit
No matter how you feel about newsstand porn, the thought of being the star of your very own birthday-suit shoot can be totally titillating. Plus its an opportunity to flirt with one cute photographer, especially if he helps you strip down to your tan lines! Yet, in capturing the thrilling moment, make sure that you, and only you, have access to these rare glimpses of you in your “finest” form. While Mother Nature meant for you to be nude, society isn’t in agreement with her on this one. And your actual mother might not like it too much either, should she stumble on your nudie pix on the Internet!

3. Never use the toilet in front of your partner
Some couples feel that they should be able to do and say anything in front of each other, even if it’s not always so pretty. And it’s true, with closeness in a relationship comes an ease and openness about certain things that early in a relationship you’d never dream of doing in front of your partner—using your menstrual heating pad, flossing, adjusting your thong along your butt crack, or picking at a pimple, for instance. However, most people would agree that there needs to be some sort of limit. This is especially true when it comes to using the loo. There are just some things you don’t need to know about each other—or at least share—and the vision of doing a #2 tops the list.

4. Never write your ex a letter letting him know “how you feel”
There is a reason they call them breakups, you know. You’re breaking off and moving on—with an emphasis on the moving on part. Writing your ex a letter will get in the way of your moving on. In fact, if you cave at this point, after all of the work you’ve done in getting yourself to a better place, you’ll probably reverse all the healing and progress you’ve made since breaking up. You’ll relive all the pain, make yourself vulnerable to more pain by putting your heart out there unprotected, and you’ll probably get caught in a roller-coaster ride of unrealistically high hopes and anguished disappointment. So don’t do it. He’s put you though enough. If it’s mean to happen again, let him make the first move.

5. Never fake orgasm
This one’s worth repeating: Never fake orgasm—even if you think faking it is a selfless, compassionate act that will spare his feelings. All you do is deprive yourself of sexual fulfillment (if climaxing is your goal) and give him a false sense of rock-star status. Just think of how his ego will be blown if he ever finds out—and you thought you were doing it to make him feel good! In addition, every time you feign climax, you train your body to believe that the fake orgasm is all it’s getting. In other words, you develop a habit that desensitizes you and makes it more difficult for you to attain orgasm for real. You end up settling in the sack. That’s not the point of sex!

6. Never drop your girlfriends for your guy
We’ve all had that girlfriend, the one who always seems to disappear when she has a boyfriend or significant other. She’s MIA until the second they’re on the rocks or done. Then guess who’s calling you, crying on your shoulder, longing for support, wailing that she’s doomed to be alone…until she finds the next one. If you find that you’re guilty of being that kind of friend yourself, rethink whether any guy is worth the cost of abandoning your social circle. When you ditch your friends for your Romeo, you’re creating a toxic, one-way friendship, and your friends are not obligated to stick around after you’ve dropped them. If you don’t nurture your friendships the way you do your relationship, you may find yourself dumped by everyone the next time you have a breakup.

7. Never keep your ex in your phone or on your buddy list
After you drop his toothbrush in the toilet—oops!—the first thing you should do after a nasty breakup is to get him off your radar. Completely. That means removing his number from your cell phone, getting him off any speed dials, and bumping him off your buddy lists online. Why this draconian purging? If the relationship and breakup were intense and emotional, it can be hard to wash him out of your hair. For many people, getting rid of all contact info is an important part of healing and finally being able to move on. And if you still have feelings for your ex—good or bad—having that number or buddy user name available at the press of a button makes it all too easy to put off the healing that needs to be done with a call or message.

Oled…

Watered-down November 20, 2007

That question pops in my mind a hundred times. I wasn’t even doing anything now except for thinking and my energy? slowly beginning to shrink.

I used to love to work. I consider myself as a workaholic person, the day after I graduated, I already have a job, it pays good of course and the reason why I didn’t allow myself to have a vacation. After a few months I shift for another job which it lasted more than a year and after that decided to swing for another position, you know for a change and here I am… struggling, breathing and striving…

BUT… lots of but…

A moment of calm and peace washed over me. I don’t know how, why, or what triggers me now, and all I feel is I feel empty. I know my life is still far from perfect (and I doubt it will ever be), but now I see myself from nowhere.

I used to have plans. I love to have plans but at this moment its nowhere in my head, worst is? I feel more tired than ever.

And I felt the missed of wonderful feeling called happiness. True, unpretentious, simple happiness. Mind you, being happy was a struggle. I used to do things could make me happy I knew that pasting a smile on my face wouldn’t just hide the loneliness I have. But now, I think, I won’t have to pretend anymore.

Am I happy? or am I just weak?

For the last few months, I feel that my body is battling for unknown disease which I myself don’t know how to define…
Emotional, physical I don’t know which aspects either…

I did try to enroll some friggin session (which I announced this blog that I’m on gym) which other says it might help, it does, but wasn’t enough.
I know I’m capable of handling things, I know its all in the state of mind, and I think I worry a lot… worrying? how can we make it stop?

Or maybe I’ll stick to my plans, and I have to be inspired… I’m thinking to quit for my job next year. Take a rest or vacation until such time that my body is ready and glued up for more hardcore work.
And still plan of going myself abroad, hopefully early next year.
Take a physical test; consult a doctor for my physical wellness. Because lately I’m been sick and seems my body is sinking…
Have more time with my 3 sisters and a brother and with my best friend.

Ok, Things are still obscure now and I’ve yet to find my direction. And I will try enough to work out all my plans. I’m working at my own pace, dealing my own issues and I know that things happen during the time they need to happen. And if I am to make them, let me make them now while I still have the luxury of youth. hehe All I’m saying is, I guess its never been too late right?

I get discourage, I always does, and hoping that I will never get tired of it, you know trying and always trying. My point is, lets be defined by something that we’ll be happy doing whether it involves bearing a soul of honor or not. I maybe living in my own world as the saying says “Living might mean taking chances but they’re worth taking, Loving might be a mistake but it’s worth making.” I always believe the most satisfying life you can have is one that you can look back upon and say to yourself proudly, “I did it my way.”

Am I just weak?
Sometimes I do…

Am I happy?
Trying to…

Oled…

They say Christmas is giving love… November 20, 2007

but gifts? would be much nicer too… lol

Just a thought that there could be somebody out there who will give me gifts this Christmas…
mind you? I asked simple… *wink*

Wishlists? i’ll give you an idea…

10. Bag… ANY big bag, oh i wouldnt mind big names too like Prada, Louis Vuitton, Mark Jacobs, Secosana, Leonardo,
actually any color will do except violet…

9. Pillow… Im thinking of buying new ones but I think it would be nice coming to someone close by my heart, you know hugs it every night, everyday and every minute of my life… hehehe

8. Your past does not define your future… A Bo Sanchez book or any books by him… nice, very affordable, and i love it…. so Im sure its not really a big thing for you to give it away…

7. HAVAIANAS…who would not want the worlds best rubber flip flops, right?
size: 7
Style: Any collection from Slim season Designs

6. A Perfect Sexy Black Bikini. And if miracle happens, a perfect body too. hehe

5. Wallet… a big one, either black or brown… with lots of secret billfold could have, safe, simple and secure…hehe

4. Slim Black Jacket from Guess…
nice… so nice…

3. Watch… I badly need one coz Im been doing a lot of delayes this time, I mean lately!

2. Nano Ipod… the new model… New 8GB Model of iPod nano (PRODUCT) RED Special Edition
its really hot!

1. Lastly…
well a simple greeting which reminds you of me this season will do… seriously???
hopefully you wouldnt chose number one right?
number one is just an exception ok…

actually cant think of anything now… hahhaha

There you go, you still have 45 days to go; oh the season of Christmastide is really now soonish…

Oled…

what’s in a name? November 9, 2007

I just didnt know, not until i found this site… Discover the hidden meaning in your name, isnt it interesting? sounds amusing huh? and here’s what i found…

Jolla Carmen

You are an inspirational individual and seem to lead a charmed existence. Material success is no more than your versatility, optimism and courage deserve. You are creative and resourceful and can develop your ideas into tangible form which brings you great satisfaction. You attract friends, love and happiness in abundance because of your warm and enthusiastic nature. Life is much better with you around.

whoaaahahah, and that boast my EGO,… lol

and if I type one word of my name
here’s the output:

Jolla

Very intelligent, broadminded and a good listener. You are an ideas person, with a wonderful creative imagination who is always seeking practical applications to apply this to. Your intelligence means that you have great potential for business success if you can apply some discipline and caution. You enjoy sensual pleasures and with a natural restless nature and liking for adventure life is rarely dull with you around.

how’s that? hahaha
lastly….

Carmen

Songstress “Latin”

You are fairminded, wise and peaceloving and are always willing to help others. Your mental capabilities and creativity are well marked with wonderful and original ideas which you need to bring to tangible fruition. Perceptive and understanding of others your positive approach to life and influential nature means that you have leadership qualities. There is great potential for success both financially and spiritually.

ok…. speechless!

your turn, lets see what youve got: Name Meanings

Oled…

still my favorite… November 9, 2007

this song manage to light up my moods… EVERSINCE!
missing someone? nah I dont think so…

I MISS YOU – INCUBUS

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn’t think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can’t explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I’m wasting away.
I know I’ll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

Oled…

my newborn obssession! November 9, 2007

ok Im not done yet… got new pics of them… hahhaa, i daresay im officially addicted! or named it! (haha who cares by the way?)

Oled…

ok, so fu*king addicted! November 8, 2007

cant hold myself enough to these two fictional character from Grey’s Anatomy (Meredith Grey and Derek Shepherd)… I mean for me they are so damn perfect to each other, I guess I was carried away by their nasty and sexy story at the show. They really look good as a couple indeed, seriously, seriously, seriously!
and so MerDer enthusiast extremist fanatic out there, count me in!!!hmmm sweet couple

at emmy’s

photoshoot at the magazine

i love their laughs

stunning

hmmmm aint theyre perfect?

lovely together

cant get enough to hold each other

lovely couple!

see they look so good together

sexy

hmmm their very first met at grey’s anatomy (season 1)
Derek: So whats your story?
Meredith: I dont have a story Im just a girl in the bar!

their stare

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walked away

Oled…

Grey’s Anatomy November 7, 2007

is nerve cracking, stomach itching, mind wrestling and soul breaking tv show Ive ever seen. (lol very exag)
mind you its the sexiest, alluring, bewitching and heart trembling series you’ve really got to watch plus a mixture of saving human beings, surgical procedures, medical operations and science. cool right? and the casts that creates a unique personality that you cant get enough… heheheh
my favorite by the way is McDreamy and Merideth.
the plot:The professional roles and real lives of a diverse group of surgeons collide unexpectedly in this Golden Globe-winning ABC television drama. As an intern at prestigious Seattle Grace Hospital, Meredith Grey (Ellen Pompeo) tries hard to live up to the reputation of her legendary surgeon mother while hiding the fact that her mom now suffers from Alzheimer’s disease. As if life weren’t complicated enough, Meredith also falls for her boss, Derek Shepherd (Patrick Dempsey), a surgical resident recently relocated to Seattle from New York. Meredith’s friend and rival Cristina Yang (Sandra Oh) finds herself in a similarly taboo romance with Preston Burke (Isaiah Washington), Derek’s chief competition for the title of chief resident. As for Meredith and Cristina’s fellow interns — Isobel “Izzie” Stevens (Katherine Heigl), George O’Malley (T.R. Knight), and Alex Karev (Justin Chambers) — they’ve got problems of their own. Izzie doesn’t want to be judged for her underwear-model past; Alex is better at bedding the ladies than bedside manner; and George can’t get any of the women around him to see him as anything but a cuddly friend. All five interns answer to the roar of senior resident Miranda Bailey (Chandra Wilson), affectionately known as “the Nazi.” But even Dr. Bailey jumps to it when Chief of Surgery Richard Webber (James Pickens Jr.) is on the scene. Although it was a hit from the time of its mid-season launch — in a plum post-Desperate Housewives time slot — on March 27, 2005, Grey’s Anatomy had sat on the shelf for a year before it saw the light of day. Creator and executive producer Shonda Rhimes received plenty of accolades for her color-blind casting, but it was Oh who earned an Emmy nod and a Golden Globe statuette for her work on the show’s first season.

The story revolves around Dr. Meredith Grey (Ellen Pompeo), a surgical intern at the fictional Seattle Grace Hospital in Seattle, Washington. The show features an ensemble cast, though Meredith is featured as the central character, providing voice-over narration at the beginning and end of most episodes. The title of the show is an allusion to the anatomy textbook Gray’s Anatomy, and play on the central character’s (Meredith Grey’s) name. Every episode title comes from the title of a song.

The show has been applauded for its non-traditional cast. The show’s producers pride themselves on the fact that they used a “blind-casting” technique, resulting in a racially diverse cast. The writers carefully chose the specialty of each doctor as an important analogy to their character and foreshadowing of their development, which adds a layer of complexity to the show.

Fisher Plaza, which houses Seattle’s ABC affiliate KOMO-TV, is used for some exterior shots of Seattle Grace Hospital. This puts Seattle Grace conveniently close to the Space Needle, the Seattle Monorail, and other local landmarks. However, the hospital used for most other exterior and many interior shots is not in Seattle; these scenes are shot at the VA Sepulveda Ambulatory Care Center in North Hills, California.[3] While the interior of Meredith’s house is a built set, the actual Seattle home used for exterior shots is in Seattle and is part of Zillow’s Famous Homes series.

see and watch episodes here: From Season 1 and Season 4

Oled…